Day 4 - To my sibling (closest relative)

Since I'm an only child, I'll dedicate this one to my cousin, Wendy :]

I remember when we were younger, we did everything together. Go out & eat, shopping with our moms, vacations, etc. Simple games of make believe were fun with you. Playing teacher, pretend shopping at a grocery store, singing.. I miss these simple times, where the only thing we worried about was leaving each other because the sky was getting dark. Now you're all grown up. You've worked so hard all these years at school & you deserve the very best. You're about to head to college and wherever you go, I know you'll succeed. I love you as if you were my little sister. Although we fought like hell when we were younger, it's different now. We've matured, and now I can talk to you about real life things. Just know, I will always be here for you. No matter what happens, I got your back just like how a sister is supposed to.

Love me...
Jini<3

BitterSweet Summer

Summer is officially over for me.
School begins in a couple hours & I should be getting some sleep.
This summer has been very bittersweet for me..

Lots of tears, smiles, laughter & stress.

I first want to apologize..
I just couldn't keep lying to myself.. hoping that one day, everything will be okay again.
I never wanted to hurt you.
My memories of us will never disappear,
but I wish one day, we can look back & reminisce these memories as friends.

Next, I would like to let someone know that I'm going to be the best.
It's because you make me feel like I am the best in the world,
that I'm going to push myself extra hard to be the best.

When you tell me I'm beautiful the way I am, I believe you.
When you kiss me, I get tingles & butterflies in my stomach.
When you hold my hand, I feel safe.
When you hug me, everything feels right.

Our late night talks seem like they can last forever...
I sometimes wonder to myself why it took so long for me to realize
something that was right in front of me this whole time...?

Good night, world.
Jini

Day 3 - To my Parents

Dear Mommy & Daddy,

I can NEVER repay the debt I owe you two.
You have done so much for me that words can't even explain.
What I must do now is to be good and make you guys proud.

Mommy, you gave me life.
You are the one who taught me how to be responsible.
You are the one who taught me how to eat ^_^
You are the one who will always be there no matter what.
You are the one who knows when something is wrong.
You are the one who holds the family together.
You are the one who will forever be my best friend.

Daddy, you taught me how to be strong.
You are the one I look up to when dealing with a problem.
You are the one who taught me there's no use in crying, live life & move on.
You are the one who taught me the value of family.
You are the one who taught me how to become a safe driver.
You are the one who protects this family.
You are the one who no matter what happens will always be on my side.

I love you both with all of my heart, body & soul.
Now that time is passing us by, it is my turn to take care of you.
You guys made who I am today-- strong, responsible & loves to eat.

I love you Mommy & Daddy.
I'd be lost without you.

Love Me ...
Jini<3

Day 2 - To my crush

Although you may think your actions aren't important,
it's the simplest things you do that touch my heart.
& I remember every single one of them ...

You gave me your jacket even though it was freezing cold.
You turn around & slow down to check if I'm okay even though you can bike so much faster.
You remember what you owed me even though I didn't remind you.
You came back to apologize even though yelling at me was the right thing to do.
You treated me to dessert.
You let me hold onto you when I was cold.
You let me put my head on your shoulder when I was tired.

You've done many things for me that may not seem like they would matter.
But to me, you make me feel special with those little actions.

I hope one day, you'll be able to see how special you make me feel :]

Love me ...
Jini<3

30 Day Letter Challenge - Day 1: To my best friend

I'm going to start this 30 day letter challenge.
I feel like this is a good way of letting out the emotions I have bottled up inside.

To my best friend:

Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. I can not thank you enough for everything you've done for me, for the time you've given me, for the effort, patience, and love you've given me. I owe you my life, and I hope by this lifetime, I can pay you back all that you have given me. Without you, I would not be the person that I am today. Without you, I would not have my strength to fight, my will to keep pushing myself, my faith in believing myself, or my morals to do the right now. I know this may sound cheesy, but you are the light that shines the road for me. You open my eyes to see outside the box, to see the broader picture and to understand the world better. I can probably write a book on how much you've influenced me to become a better person, but knowing you, you would probably tell me to go study instead. I truly appreciate everything about you and I would not know what to do without you in my life. Even if we were to separate right now, I'm glad I did know you. Because now I know, if I ever run into predicaments, what I need to do first is "Breathe & Drink Water."

To my best friend:

You are the one that keeps me happy in life. I don't ever thank you enough for always putting a smile on my face. You give me a sense of security. Whenever I am with you, I know I am safe and that I can depend on you. You are the greatest friend a person can ever ask for. Whenever I have a problem, you drop everything and immediately come to my side to comfort me. I truly cherish all the time we spend together; whether it's just eating lunch, playing sports, meaningful talks, random talks, reminiscing or working. All the time I spend with you are happy times. If you were to disappear out of my life, I know my days ahead would be a lot less joyful.

I love the both of you with all of my heart.
& writing this first post has made me realize how important you two are to me.
Thank you.
Thank you.
Thank you.
Thank you for everything.

Love me...
Jini<3

Don't Hold onto Me for Security

Everything is different.

I wasn't supposed to get my feelings mixed up into this...
Nothing is going according to plan.

I'm caring too much about you.
I'm thinking too much about you.
I wasn't supposed to get hurt...

I hate how everything is now.


Love me...
Jini<3

들리니 I Need You, I Love You...

Long time no see...
The month of May has definitely been full of surprises :]

May is Asian Heritage Month. & we have a fair to celebrate it.

At the fair, I saw Far East Movement ^_^& won tickets to the BROWN EYED GIRLS, Bruno Mars, & T-Pain concert!

Bruno Mars is such a cutie!

It was awesome! But BEG only sang 3 songs. Wtf?
Oh well, at least I got to see them right?
It was crazy. As soon as they came out, tears started to flow out of my eyes.
They are more beautiful in person than they are in music videos.
I'm hoping to see them again soon ...

Narsha ; Miryo ; Ga-In ; Missing JeA (visa problems)

After the show, we got dinner & dessert. I had a banana split~ YUM!
This week is finals week & it felt so good to just relax and spend time with friends over some dessert.

banana split with cookies n cream ice cream

my look for the concert ; face looks super white cus of flash

Wish me luck on finals! I'll talk to you guys after that :]

Love me ...
Jini<3