I'm really really really sorry I haven't updated in so long.
Finals are coming up soon, and Spring semester will be here before I know it.
So, I've taken the time to choose classes..
It seems kind of dumb that I'm taking so long to choose classes,
but this upcoming semester will determine what I'm going to major in.
I pretty much narrowed it down to two choices already:
-Neurology: specializing in strokes and anxiety
-Business Management: hoping to open my own shop/restaurant
Hah, the two majors have absolutely nothing in common.
If I study neurology, I would be doing something I should do.
It's the only way I can help others to never experience the feelings I get,
and to prevent others from ever having to suffer from the pain.
But if I study business, I would be doing something I want to do.
I long for critique of my creations. I adore people. I love to interact.
The reason why it's so hard for me to make this decision is because I don't want to regret.
Sigh, but I've pretty much made my decision already,
and this is the first decision that I'll be making for my adult life..
It's almost Thanksgiving.
I can't wait to be around all the warmth that used to be..
Love me ..
Jini<3
Sunday, November 22, 2009
Thursday, October 8, 2009
Fuck Heartless Money
There is something I don't understand in this world .
& I guess it could be kind of political,
but it connects with me on a personal level .
Why can't a person who doesn't feel well,
just go into a doctor's office and seek medical help,
without worrying about money ?
Aren't doctors supposed to be helping others ?
Don't they follow their dream to be a doctor
because of their passion to help others ?
I don't FUCKING understand it !
Why is it that a person that is UNWELL
has to COUGH UP $30 just to see a heartless doctor
who gives medical advice like, "Just sleep more, eat healthier, & exercise."
SERIOUSLY, I did NOT need to fucking pay you $30
for something I could have fucking told myself !
Are there ANY doctors that actually CARE for people now ?
How can MONEY blind somebody's heart so much
that they won't even bother to let you come into their office
without health insurance, or money for "co-payment" ?
What the fuck am I paying health insurance for, if I have to pay co-payment ?
Don't even fucking start with me about doctors need to get paid too .
THEY MAKE ENOUGH FUCKING MONEY EVERY YEAR .
EVER THINK ABOUT HOW MUCH THEY SAVE
CUS THEY DON'T NEED PAY CO-PAYMENT
WHENEVER THEY NEED TO SEE THEMSELVES FOR MEDICAL HELP ?!?
If you are even thinking about being a doctor,
you better be fucking passionate about HELPING people,
and not just in it for the fuck damn money .
If not, then you should just go fuck yourself,
because you'll end up being one of those useless assfucks
who get paid for doing no fucking thing .
& I guess it could be kind of political,
but it connects with me on a personal level .
Why can't a person who doesn't feel well,
just go into a doctor's office and seek medical help,
without worrying about money ?
Aren't doctors supposed to be helping others ?
Don't they follow their dream to be a doctor
because of their passion to help others ?
I don't FUCKING understand it !
Why is it that a person that is UNWELL
has to COUGH UP $30 just to see a heartless doctor
who gives medical advice like, "Just sleep more, eat healthier, & exercise."
SERIOUSLY, I did NOT need to fucking pay you $30
for something I could have fucking told myself !
Are there ANY doctors that actually CARE for people now ?
How can MONEY blind somebody's heart so much
that they won't even bother to let you come into their office
without health insurance, or money for "co-payment" ?
What the fuck am I paying health insurance for, if I have to pay co-payment ?
Don't even fucking start with me about doctors need to get paid too .
THEY MAKE ENOUGH FUCKING MONEY EVERY YEAR .
EVER THINK ABOUT HOW MUCH THEY SAVE
CUS THEY DON'T NEED PAY CO-PAYMENT
WHENEVER THEY NEED TO SEE THEMSELVES FOR MEDICAL HELP ?!?
If you are even thinking about being a doctor,
you better be fucking passionate about HELPING people,
and not just in it for the fuck damn money .
If not, then you should just go fuck yourself,
because you'll end up being one of those useless assfucks
who get paid for doing no fucking thing .
Sunday, September 20, 2009
Simplicity: a careless night
Simple moments can make such an important imprint on your heart .
The other night I went out with my two best friends .
Nothing special . To be honest,
I don't even remember why we decided to go out .
We ran into a friend who works at a sushi restaurant
& he offered us some food . Of course, we declined .
Later, we get a call from him telling us he brought us food -_-"
It was so sweet of him <3
Soon after, I find us sitting on someone's doorsteps, the sun is almost set,
drinking our miso soups, eating our seaweed salad & sushi .
I love times like these ..
All the problems in the world just seem to melt with the sun .
Nothing in the world mattered,
except who was going to get the last piece of sushi . Haha .
After that, we decided to go get ice cream .
We ended up standing at a street corner .
Laughing, eating ice cream, sharing ..
It felt like I was back in time ..
when just sharing a simple ice cream with friends was special .
The time we spent together seemed to go by so fast .
It felt like it was just yesterday that I left childhood,
and started to grow up and really live .
Like it was just last week that I realize how important best friends are .
This is dedicated to someone really special:
You're gone now . A new chapter of your life is starting to unfold .
I'm going to miss you, but I realize I can't be the one to hold you back .
Even though, I want you to stay .. It's time for me to stop being dependent .
You have always been the one to push me to the fullest .
Now, whenever I'm in doubt, I'll hear your voice telling me to just do it .
Although we're in different places, our friendship will always be strong .
Promise me one thing: Don't Forget Our Memories .
Love me ..
Jini <3
The other night I went out with my two best friends .
Nothing special . To be honest,
I don't even remember why we decided to go out .
We ran into a friend who works at a sushi restaurant
& he offered us some food . Of course, we declined .
Later, we get a call from him telling us he brought us food -_-"
It was so sweet of him <3
Soon after, I find us sitting on someone's doorsteps, the sun is almost set,
drinking our miso soups, eating our seaweed salad & sushi .
I love times like these ..
All the problems in the world just seem to melt with the sun .
Nothing in the world mattered,
except who was going to get the last piece of sushi . Haha .
After that, we decided to go get ice cream .
We ended up standing at a street corner .
Laughing, eating ice cream, sharing ..
It felt like I was back in time ..
when just sharing a simple ice cream with friends was special .
The time we spent together seemed to go by so fast .
It felt like it was just yesterday that I left childhood,
and started to grow up and really live .
Like it was just last week that I realize how important best friends are .
This is dedicated to someone really special:
You're gone now . A new chapter of your life is starting to unfold .
I'm going to miss you, but I realize I can't be the one to hold you back .
Even though, I want you to stay .. It's time for me to stop being dependent .
You have always been the one to push me to the fullest .
Now, whenever I'm in doubt, I'll hear your voice telling me to just do it .
Although we're in different places, our friendship will always be strong .
Promise me one thing: Don't Forget Our Memories .
Love me ..
Jini <3
Monday, August 17, 2009
Pure, Innocent Beauty
Summer has officially ended for me .
First day of school was today ..
I thought it was alright, but it all just seemed to relax .
Mm, maybe it just hasn't gotten to me yet that I'm in college now .
Anyway, I went camping for the first time in my life, finally .
We collected rocks . Haha, that probably sounds weird
but the rocks were actually really pretty .
Just doing simple things like that can still put a smile to my face .
It just goes to show you that laughter doesn't have to be complex .
No matter how complicated and dark your life can be;
a simple laughter can make it brighter ..
The campsite was beautiful .
There was absolutely no city life around there .
Nature just on its own; pure, innocent beauty .
I finally got to see the sunset, in real life .
It was hard to just stare at it because it was so bright,
but the glow of the sun was so calming ..
I couldn't keep my eyes off it, until the sun pretty just fell into the ocean .
At night, the sky was even more beautiful ..
I love looking at stars in the city . My friend just laughs and goes,
" You think those are pretty . Just wait til you go camping . "
& he was right . I was surrounded by the stars .
Saw a couple of shooting stars as well-- I didn't have enough time to make a wish
because I was so captivated by them . ( plus they were really fast )
Recently, I went to a fair to celebrate J-Pop culture .
My friend & I shared two mini-cupcakes:
Thai Tea and Lemon Basil Blueberry
All I have to say is, WOW .
Well, the thai tea one needed a bit more intensity,
but the lemon basil blueberry was amazing .
I'm really sad I don't remember what their company was called .
I would share it with everyone if I knew .
Doesn't the name of the cupcake just sound wonderful ??
On a side note, I work as a salesperson ( food ) .
A couple came in to order, and they only had AmEx,
but we don't accept those cards .
I told them, " You guys can just come back later . We close @ 11 . "
They said they lived close by,
& I guess I just thought humans had a better heart ..
Anyway, they didn't come back;
however, a couple weeks later, they came in to order .
I recognized them, & I served them horribly .
Giving them as small portions as I could,
& giving them the biggest attitude a server could without getting fired .
Well, after that, I didn't feel satisfied ..
so when they came in for the third time,
I decided to just let it go . What's the point ?
Being mean isn't going to help me
or make me feel better . So I was nice to them .
We ended up laughing about something . . .
That, that actually made me feel better;
a better human being .
But, yes, I naively believed that they would come back with money .
On August 8, 2009, the moon was red .
It was the most beautiful state I've ever seen the moon in ..
Love me ..
Jini<3
First day of school was today ..
I thought it was alright, but it all just seemed to relax .
Mm, maybe it just hasn't gotten to me yet that I'm in college now .
Anyway, I went camping for the first time in my life, finally .
We collected rocks . Haha, that probably sounds weird
but the rocks were actually really pretty .
Just doing simple things like that can still put a smile to my face .
It just goes to show you that laughter doesn't have to be complex .
No matter how complicated and dark your life can be;
a simple laughter can make it brighter ..
The campsite was beautiful .
There was absolutely no city life around there .
Nature just on its own; pure, innocent beauty .
I finally got to see the sunset, in real life .
It was hard to just stare at it because it was so bright,
but the glow of the sun was so calming ..
I couldn't keep my eyes off it, until the sun pretty just fell into the ocean .
At night, the sky was even more beautiful ..
I love looking at stars in the city . My friend just laughs and goes,
" You think those are pretty . Just wait til you go camping . "
& he was right . I was surrounded by the stars .
Saw a couple of shooting stars as well-- I didn't have enough time to make a wish
because I was so captivated by them . ( plus they were really fast )
Recently, I went to a fair to celebrate J-Pop culture .
My friend & I shared two mini-cupcakes:
Thai Tea and Lemon Basil Blueberry
All I have to say is, WOW .
Well, the thai tea one needed a bit more intensity,
but the lemon basil blueberry was amazing .
I'm really sad I don't remember what their company was called .
I would share it with everyone if I knew .
Doesn't the name of the cupcake just sound wonderful ??
On a side note, I work as a salesperson ( food ) .
A couple came in to order, and they only had AmEx,
but we don't accept those cards .
I told them, " You guys can just come back later . We close @ 11 . "
They said they lived close by,
& I guess I just thought humans had a better heart ..
Anyway, they didn't come back;
however, a couple weeks later, they came in to order .
I recognized them, & I served them horribly .
Giving them as small portions as I could,
& giving them the biggest attitude a server could without getting fired .
Well, after that, I didn't feel satisfied ..
so when they came in for the third time,
I decided to just let it go . What's the point ?
Being mean isn't going to help me
or make me feel better . So I was nice to them .
We ended up laughing about something . . .
That, that actually made me feel better;
a better human being .
But, yes, I naively believed that they would come back with money .
On August 8, 2009, the moon was red .
It was the most beautiful state I've ever seen the moon in ..
Love me ..
Jini<3
Monday, August 3, 2009
Sweet Memories
I recently went to my K-8th Grade Reunion,
& wow, let me just say, it was SUPER fun .
On the way there, I have to admit, I was a bit nervous seeing everyone again .
But once I got there, I was welcomed with a giant hug from Ellie ( best friend ) .
Tears came to my eyes as I realized we haven't seen each other in four years .
It was nice; probably because we knew ..
We knew everything in the past was in the past .
& what mattered now, was the friendship we had and the friendship we will have .
Funny, but the ones close to me during school didn't really change at all ..
Sitting at the dinner table, we ended up laughing about the same old things .
Those kinds of memories will never vanish
and will forever be cherished ..
because in order to stay in our hearts for four years
& still be hilarious now, it has to be pretty important right ?
Others, however, changed so much that it's surprising ..
I mean, we weren't close or anything but,
I just can't believe some one can become so different in a period of time .
On the serious side though, I have to mention this--
most of the parents back then always thought I was the bad one .
The one doing drugs, partying all the time, having sex non-stop, etc .
Hah, I want to laugh at their stupidity ..
because it turns out, it's their own that is "bad" .
I feel bad for them but at the same time, I feel wickedly amused that the very thing
they feared will happen to their children
actually happened to their children without my help .
Watching the Food Network makes me hungry ..
Love me ..
Jini<3
& wow, let me just say, it was SUPER fun .
On the way there, I have to admit, I was a bit nervous seeing everyone again .
But once I got there, I was welcomed with a giant hug from Ellie ( best friend ) .
Tears came to my eyes as I realized we haven't seen each other in four years .
It was nice; probably because we knew ..
We knew everything in the past was in the past .
& what mattered now, was the friendship we had and the friendship we will have .
Funny, but the ones close to me during school didn't really change at all ..
Sitting at the dinner table, we ended up laughing about the same old things .
Those kinds of memories will never vanish
and will forever be cherished ..
because in order to stay in our hearts for four years
& still be hilarious now, it has to be pretty important right ?
Others, however, changed so much that it's surprising ..
I mean, we weren't close or anything but,
I just can't believe some one can become so different in a period of time .
On the serious side though, I have to mention this--
most of the parents back then always thought I was the bad one .
The one doing drugs, partying all the time, having sex non-stop, etc .
Hah, I want to laugh at their stupidity ..
because it turns out, it's their own that is "bad" .
I feel bad for them but at the same time, I feel wickedly amused that the very thing
they feared will happen to their children
actually happened to their children without my help .
Watching the Food Network makes me hungry ..
Love me ..
Jini<3
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
It's Been a While ..
I'm being way too lazy ..
I feel like I've been back from China for two months already,
but reality is, I've only been back for two weeks .
China computers wouldn't let me go on to blogger.com .
But it's alright, not much happened anyway .
Brief description of China:
Cheap clothes, cheap but delicious food, takoyaki everyday, nonstop haggling, new friends, new sights, new hair, ruined hair, free hair (cut, dye, perm, wash), over 40 mosquitoe bites (assholes), changing from transportation to transportation, won 60 HKD in Macau slots, etc etc etc <3>
(( EDIT )) Fucking blogger deleted half of my original post . Shitheads !
It feels nice to be back though . Even a bit of relief ..
Seeing familiar faces, knowing where to go, having that security of being home ..
Yeah, that's what I missed when I was in China .
Coming back, I was kind of scared that things might've changed .
Not much has changed but just the little things that matter have .
Some thing is just not the same ..
I'm definitely going to miss China though; I already do .
I mean, after I get tired of all the clothes I bought .. where am I going to buy cheap clothes ?
Anyway, Mint recently invited me to watch the Vamps live with her cus she had extra free tickets .
It was so crowded, I couldn't really see Hyde or Kaz.
That's why I mainly focused on Ju-Ken .. the bass player .
During the whole time, everyone around me was jumping up and down to the music;
I mostly just stood there, mesmerized, gazing just at Ju-Ken .
Hyde, of course, was a cutie . Especially when he said,
"I bought lots of clothes .. Do you know why ? Because it is very .. cold here .."
He also said he liked SF because we have HYDE street :D
Kaz was cute too . Too bad he was on the other side ..
But during one of the songs, Ju-Ken brought out this awesome looking electric cello .
He is so amazingly talented ..
His energy, and his passion with the bass and the cello ..
left me completely paralyzed watching him ..
Just watching him play and rock out .. is kind of orgasmic .
I hope they'll have another USA tour soon after this one ends .
Ahh .. it's 5~ I should start getting ready .
Love me ..
Jini<3
I feel like I've been back from China for two months already,
but reality is, I've only been back for two weeks .
China computers wouldn't let me go on to blogger.com .
But it's alright, not much happened anyway .
Brief description of China:
Cheap clothes, cheap but delicious food, takoyaki everyday, nonstop haggling, new friends, new sights, new hair, ruined hair, free hair (cut, dye, perm, wash), over 40 mosquitoe bites (assholes), changing from transportation to transportation, won 60 HKD in Macau slots, etc etc etc <3>
(( EDIT )) Fucking blogger deleted half of my original post . Shitheads !
It feels nice to be back though . Even a bit of relief ..
Seeing familiar faces, knowing where to go, having that security of being home ..
Yeah, that's what I missed when I was in China .
Coming back, I was kind of scared that things might've changed .
Not much has changed but just the little things that matter have .
Some thing is just not the same ..
I'm definitely going to miss China though; I already do .
I mean, after I get tired of all the clothes I bought .. where am I going to buy cheap clothes ?
Anyway, Mint recently invited me to watch the Vamps live with her cus she had extra free tickets .
It was so crowded, I couldn't really see Hyde or Kaz.
That's why I mainly focused on Ju-Ken .. the bass player .
During the whole time, everyone around me was jumping up and down to the music;
I mostly just stood there, mesmerized, gazing just at Ju-Ken .
Hyde, of course, was a cutie . Especially when he said,
"I bought lots of clothes .. Do you know why ? Because it is very .. cold here .."
He also said he liked SF because we have HYDE street :D
Kaz was cute too . Too bad he was on the other side ..
But during one of the songs, Ju-Ken brought out this awesome looking electric cello .
He is so amazingly talented ..
His energy, and his passion with the bass and the cello ..
left me completely paralyzed watching him ..
Just watching him play and rock out .. is kind of orgasmic .
I hope they'll have another USA tour soon after this one ends .
Ahh .. it's 5~ I should start getting ready .
Love me ..
Jini<3
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
A Fresh Start ..~
I think this is my first time having my own blog other than Xanga ...
Well, anyway it's around 8:40 now;
there's leftovers next to me ..
Dad's still sleeping .
Mom's doing housework, as usual .
I don't feel like crying yet ..
Like how I didn't feel like crying at graduation yesterday .
Okay, that's not the point of this .
I thought of starting this blog a long time ago,
but just didn't know how to begin ..
Then I planned a trip to China~
Why not start this blog off with a bang, right ?
Yup, I'm leaving for China soon :D
I'm excited, nervous, and scared at the same time .
I've never been there & I'm not traveling with my parents -_-"
Throughout the trip, I'll be updating ;D
See you guys soon !
Love Me ..
Jini<3
P.S.: The blogger template will be changed .
About me will be entered .
Everything is under construction .
Well, anyway it's around 8:40 now;
there's leftovers next to me ..
Dad's still sleeping .
Mom's doing housework, as usual .
I don't feel like crying yet ..
Like how I didn't feel like crying at graduation yesterday .
Okay, that's not the point of this .
I thought of starting this blog a long time ago,
but just didn't know how to begin ..
Then I planned a trip to China~
Why not start this blog off with a bang, right ?
Yup, I'm leaving for China soon :D
I'm excited, nervous, and scared at the same time .
I've never been there & I'm not traveling with my parents -_-"
Throughout the trip, I'll be updating ;D
See you guys soon !
Love Me ..
Jini<3
P.S.: The blogger template will be changed .
About me will be entered .
Everything is under construction .
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