Cover: Wedding Dress by TaeYang (female version)

I hope you guys enjoy this! I love to sing and create lyrics that I feel would fit the song through my own eyes. Let me know what you think :D

Love me ...
Jini

My First Happy Post :)

I'm full of happiness and food right now.
Finally, I can post about something positive in my life.

Today, my boss, Mandy, took my boyfriend & I out for our birthday dinner.
We went to her friend's restaurant, SUMI (Japanese food.)
& "FRESH" is probably the best word to describe it.

This place is super cute. Tiny, cozy, modern, & sleek.
There was probably only 10-15 small (2 person) tables & the bar seating around 5.
Although it was small, the restaurant had a really nice feel to it.

I love raw fish. & almost everything we ate was raw ><"

First, we started off with some appetizers.


miso soup (non-packaged ones tastes so much better)


simple salad


fish liver wrapped with raw fish topped with miso sauce




fish liver appetizer


uni and ebi nigiri (yummy!)


raw queen clam


deep fried ebi head (light & crunchy, like shrimp chips)




Obama-hama (hamachi & cilantro-- SO GOOD)


salmon with scallop on top


unagi tempura don


self explained


Jack & I


chocolate creme brulee


sweet piggy & angry piggy from Mandy

Just a simple dinner like this can make me forget about the worries in the world.
But then again, who you have dinner with is important too.

I'm so grateful to have been able to meet Mandy :)
Because of her, she has opened many opportunities for me
& I will never forget what she has done for me.

I can't wait until it's her birthday, so I can treat her.

Love me ...
Jini

My fault...?

No matter how hard I try, it just seems like I'm slowly losing everyone important around me.

Up until now, I had always thought, "It's their problem. THEY are the ones that changed."
I never stopped to think... Maybe it's my fault.
Maybe I didn't try hard enough.
Maybe I didn't care about them enough.
Maybe I took them for granted.

But what's done is done.
We can't go back and change the past.
And I absolutely refuse to conform to your ways.

Secretly inside... It still hurts.
I miss the old days.

I wish my blog can be a more happy place,
instead of a place where I write all my sad, sappy tales.
Remember how I said I wanted to start some FOTD stuff?
I really need to stop procrastinating and just do it.

I'll be back soon.

Love me...
Jini<3

I'll Miss You...

Life comes and goes.
It's hard to think rationally like that
when the life that goes is someone close to your heart.

Because we were never really close
is why I feel like I haven't done my part.

For the last moments, I just wanted to see you laugh & smile again...

Seeing someone suffering,
and not being able to help is the most painful thing to feel.

At least now, you don't have to suffer anymore.

When a person is dying, I wonder, what are the thoughts fill their heads?
Their family? Their jobs? Their pain?

Appreciate everyone around you.
Don't take anyone for granted.

What I've learned from your life lived is to be strong.
You're one of the strongest fighters in the world
& I, too, will become strong so I can move on.

Bittersweet endings...
Jini

What Used to Be..

Happy Chinese New Years!
& Happy Valentine's Day.

The thing I looked forward to each Chinese New Years
isn't any red envelope with money or anything of that sort.
It was waking up in the morning, and hearing the Chinese New Year songs.

Although each year, it's the same music, same lyrics..
it was still special to me.

As each year passes, I feel as if the tradition of Chinese New Years is decaying.
The fairs aren't as lively, things don't look as red as they should..
Hell, I even painted my nails red to try to get more into the mood of Chinese New Years.

What's happening to us?
I wish things were like before, when things were more simple..

When my Grandma would take me out to the fair, & I would have the time of my life
When my parents would watch Chinese New Year shows with me
When the scariest thing to me was only firecrackers,
now I know there are far more scarier things..

These things..
even though seem so simple, are so important.
I regret the fact that I didn't appreciate them when I had them.
I regret the fact that I had to grow up,
and not realize who the important people in my life are.

I can't keep wishing and reminiscing in the past.
I need to appreciate what I have now, and try to repair broken relationships.
It's time to move on.

Anyway,
I wish you all a life of good health, great fortune, and dreams come true.

Love me ..
Jini<3

Brand New Start

I guess it's time for me to write down all my New Year's resolutions, huh?
But instead of doing that, what my cousin said is right..
"Why can't you start today? Just because the year changes, doesn't mean everything else does."

I hope everyone who reads this will realize it's time to get up and do something.
No planning, no procrastinating. If you are, then "you're just behind."

Anyway, how did you all spend your New Year's?
I spent it at work, with friends. Surprisingly, it was quite fun.
Once we counted down, we popped open our Apple Cider, and had our first frozen yogurt shot of the year.
That's what I like about us. There's no need for alcohol for us to have fun with each other.

I think I might actually make this blog not just about my feelings anymore.
I'll begin to put up FOTD (face of the day), and fashion stuff.

Spring semester is about to start again..
This winter break has passed by so fast.

I will update soon with a better post.

Love me<3
Jini

My First Verdict ..

I'm really really really sorry I haven't updated in so long.
Finals are coming up soon, and Spring semester will be here before I know it.
So, I've taken the time to choose classes..

It seems kind of dumb that I'm taking so long to choose classes,
but this upcoming semester will determine what I'm going to major in.

I pretty much narrowed it down to two choices already:
-Neurology: specializing in strokes and anxiety
-Business Management: hoping to open my own shop/restaurant

Hah, the two majors have absolutely nothing in common.

If I study neurology, I would be doing something I should do.
It's the only way I can help others to never experience the feelings I get,
and to prevent others from ever having to suffer from the pain.
But if I study business, I would be doing something I want to do.
I long for critique of my creations. I adore people. I love to interact.
The reason why it's so hard for me to make this decision is because I don't want to regret.

Sigh, but I've pretty much made my decision already,
and this is the first decision that I'll be making for my adult life..


It's almost Thanksgiving.
I can't wait to be around all the warmth that used to be..

Love me ..
Jini<3